Julie Wells
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I believe I have loved this young man for three years since I met him. We met in junior high and we were immediately attracted to each other, just a strange instant connection, it was fiery--lame as that sounds. But again, we were thirteen, fourteen and the closer we got, the kind of more a typical boy he became. And one day, he kind of turned off our relationship and started out of no where calling me incredibly hurtful names that were really undignified. It sounds so much like: "OH boys are mean to the girls they like!" And after fighting with him for hurting me when I knew and felt he really felt for me. He told me that he was afraid he would like me too much.
After that, I felt more hurt and did my best to give him the cold shoulder. Later on through the years, me and a best friend had a falling out and were not friends, however I told her all the intimate details of how I still felt for him, I cried for him, torn up about it. Then. She went out with him. I was so hurt and shocked by it, I only grew up with her for crying out loud. When they were dating, he tried talking to me (in our first years of high school) trying to be friends with me or be close to me for some reason I don't know! But it felt like he was trying to get a reaction from me, which he did, I hit him hard. If you knew him, you would too and I am not a violent person. Anyways eventually they broke up.
Months went by and his eyes would avoid me noticeably but I have always wondered about. I went on dates with other guys, but they didn't work out and my thoughts always wondered back to him. Now as of recent, my chest feels like its hurting when I see him, I want to cry, I want to talk to him. He stares at me intensely. I want so much just to be with him but there's a wall between us. Let alone, I don't even know if he wants to talk to me. How do we get past whats been? I feel like he has to be the one to step up and apologize, I want to apologize even for whatever, despite the way he has treated me.
Any suggestions?
After that, I felt more hurt and did my best to give him the cold shoulder. Later on through the years, me and a best friend had a falling out and were not friends, however I told her all the intimate details of how I still felt for him, I cried for him, torn up about it. Then. She went out with him. I was so hurt and shocked by it, I only grew up with her for crying out loud. When they were dating, he tried talking to me (in our first years of high school) trying to be friends with me or be close to me for some reason I don't know! But it felt like he was trying to get a reaction from me, which he did, I hit him hard. If you knew him, you would too and I am not a violent person. Anyways eventually they broke up.
Months went by and his eyes would avoid me noticeably but I have always wondered about. I went on dates with other guys, but they didn't work out and my thoughts always wondered back to him. Now as of recent, my chest feels like its hurting when I see him, I want to cry, I want to talk to him. He stares at me intensely. I want so much just to be with him but there's a wall between us. Let alone, I don't even know if he wants to talk to me. How do we get past whats been? I feel like he has to be the one to step up and apologize, I want to apologize even for whatever, despite the way he has treated me.
Any suggestions?