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I am a 22 year old college student who has suffered from Deppression and anxiety for years, but seem to be experiencing it worse now than it's been for a long time. When I was 17, a junior in college, I went on accutane which seemed to trigger depression. I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with Depression, anxiety, OCD and Body Dismorphic disorder. I was put on 20mg of Prozac which was very successful and pulled me out of the depression. I had over a year of complete satisfaction and happiness. It was a great feeling. When I started college, I had a bad experience and developed anxiety. I have attended 4 different schools in 4 years, and though I have grown accustomed and comfortable to each one, I have experienced panic attacks my first few days of attendance. During these panic attacks, I get hot and cold flashes, I lose my appetite completely, shake, I am restless, fatigued and I get an overwhelming feeling of loss of control and utter helplessness. It is a horrible feeling and whenever it happens, I want to be sedated. I have been fine for the past year, but recently, I went abroad with my school and the first few days, I had the panic attacks and anxiousness. Since then, even though I am back from being abroad, I am anxious. I think it is times of change that these attacks happen. I over-analyze everything... If someone says something a certain way, I become very paranoid that they are angry with me or upset. I also find all situations awkward when they clearly are not. I guess overall, when it comes to my anxiety, I over-think. I let non-issues bother me. I am constantly concerned about my appearance, about what people think, what they know... It's like walking on egg shells all the time. It triggers my depression and I get very self conscious. I can never relax, not care and just enjoy things. I am in the process of getting an appointment with a counselor. I would just love some advice from anyone on what they think this might be.
Thanks a lot and I'd love to hear your thoughts.
Thanks a lot and I'd love to hear your thoughts.