There is a certain artwork that I came across but I forgot what it was called. It was a fine sketch, done in black and white and it has a particular name. It is by an old artist .... Possibly english?
If you're not getting therapy then I'd recommend that you ask to be referred for therapy as that is the key treatment for borderline personality disorder. If the medication you're on is making you ill then speak to your doctor about what other medication you could try as there are so many...