you gotta write 3rd person. first person is hard to like, unless the reader can relate with the character.
but if you want to write like a man, just think how a guy would think
Before you are scheduled to meet her again, walk upto her and apologize! Admit your mistake (look remorseful and sound remorseful), promise not to do it again, and then (whether she accepts your apology or not) be as nice to her as possible in the future.