Straight up, you have a drinking problem. Get yourself some help immediately....You life as well as others are in danger.
Part of being in the miliary is having self control, and self discipline.
Too many of our servicemembers and veterans kill themselves and others while drinking...
I can try and help...I would first suggest you get some different books...go to your library and order whatever they have.
write me at inspiredcoaching@gmail and we can chat.
If no none helps out, I would suggest you google soi graduation...or boot camp gradutation...for usmc...there should be some websites that will give you informaition for the area.
We went to mct grad for our son, and we stayed on base...I would make reservations now..as it books up quickly...
Now let us have you ask the same question....phrased different in Religion...do they brainwash nuns and priests?
The Marines strip the individual ego...to have them work in a team...a process that is not brainwashing...
The Marines want a clear, clean palette to work with...so you strip away...