you wanna know what my fuckin' problem is?

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DrewC

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if you don't, then don't fuckin' read this shit. it's a really long rant, so bear with me.

Here's the deal... i was never good in school... sure, i blamed it on the teachers, just like everybody else who went through high school... they just didn't seem to understand that books are not the way of teaching for many people. i don't learn from books. books are useless to me. sure, i can read that shit... but once i'm done, it'll all be forgotten. i learn from watching and doing... call me ignorant/stupid/whatever, but i don't care... i don't care about history... i don't care about math... i don't care about anything they taught me... or, rather, tried to teach me.

yeah, i did good... in grades 1-4, i was an A student... after that, i slipped... B student... C student... then i barely passed any grades in high school. why? because of teachers who couldn't teach? because of my unwillingness to learn? because of my inability? or because of a mixture of all of the above? i'm not saying i was incapable... i was, even though i don't admit it sometimes. even though we had teachers who couldn't teach, i'm not blaming them.

i'll use math as an example... math 12 (stupidest decision i ever made was taking that course)... math was never my strong point... so when he gave us notes, sure, i wrote them down... but they didn't help me any. because the notes he gave us had nothing to do with the homework he assigned us. i'm no good at math, as i've said... especially when it comes to figuring things out for myself. history, too... the final exam had nothing to do with what we learned in class. most of it was based on opinion and facts... so i failed both those exams.

i don't have my high school diploma. why? because of 2 subjects... history 12 and math 12. they were, perhaps, the most useless subjects i've ever taken. a large part of history 12 was contributing to the class... giving your opinion... but what if i have no opinion? what if i just want to sit and take notes? what if i was taught all my life that i was stupid, that my opinion was counted for nothing... shot down... stepped upon? another thing is group work... we did a lot of big projects and stuff... what if i prefered to work alone? so i just sat in my spot at the back of the class, while everybody got into their little groups, and i'd end up joining whatever group was short a person, or i'd end up working alone. i've been doing that since grade 8.

i hated memorizing facts. you know why? because facts get you nowhere in the real world. who cares if the 100 year war didn't last exactly 100 years? who cares if an elephant's the largest land animal on earth? i don't care. it's useless... all of it. i find i can be happier if i'm un-informed. what difference can i make in this world? i am one voice among 6 billion. my opinion doesn't count. that's also why i choose not to vote. because i know nothing of political parties or their policies. my parents would want me to vote CHP (christian heritage party... yes, they're christian.) fuck that. i simply do not care. i just want to live my life as i want to live my life... i don't want to be dictated... pushed around... bossed around (though that is ineveitable, i'd have to say).

on a final note, i'm not normal... i'm not like most people who seem to care about their future... i'm different. i take whatever life hands me. i float from job to job, taking whatever i can get... if i become a street bum, so be it. i'm going to say this now... you're all witnesses (if you've read this far), so i can't blame anybody else... whatever happens, is MY fault. if i end up living on the street, it's my fault. if i end up living with my parents till i'm 45 (seems likely at this point), it's my fault. my fault for not wanting to go to college... my fault for being a jackass.
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blah... my fingers are getting tired.

feel free to rip me apart on this post... that's all i've been getting for the past 12 years of my life anyway. i can take it.

congrats if you've read this far.
 
I'm not going to rip you apart on this, because I can relate to this. I was an A student back then, then it started to slip later on, during puberty and such.
I can relate to what your going through man, its the same way for me, I'm having trouble with school and findjing a job. Just in the future, try to do things a lil' better. Thats what I'm trying to do, so good luck. :thumbsup:
 
So... you don't care if you don't go anywhere in life? That is such a stupid mentality; you just want to be some grumpy dude that uses "I don't care" as an excuse not to go anywhere? As harsh as this may sound, you *seem*are a waste of life.
 
Is this really your birthday: January 4, 1941 ? (got this from your profile)

If it is. It is a bit too late to start complaining!

Since you don't care about your life, I would suggest to travel the world. Just go around the world and work on whatever you can get, then move on. If you are going to waste your life away, might as well have fun doing it.
 
i agree that my mentality is fucked up. and i agree that i am a waste of life... but, waste that i am, i am still here.



no, that's not my birthday... i never put any personal info in my profile... because i don't trust anybody :)

and the travelling thing... that would be great... if i had money
 
He mentioned he had no money.




All you need is your passport. Well, yeah you would need some $ to go to Europe or across the ocean. But you can travel to south America. You can cross the border to USA, travel to California, then go to Mexico, then go to central America. If you make it that far down, then you will be able to make it to BRAZIL. You will enjoy life down here... I am speaking for experience. If you don't make it that far down, and get killed by some extremist group, who cares, you apparently don't give a fuck about much...
 
:hug2: UF, you are not a waste of life. You just have no direction. I know you're a good person. Things will work out for you. I have faith in that. Just hold in there and you'll come out fine.
 
you and the other 5 million american seniors in high school are the reason Japan is going to run the county in 20 years. You're bitching about not being able to memorize facts and read books, but that is what school is.
Before you continue on telling me about your social problems, and the lack of quality education oppurtunities in this country. Ask yourself if you you really and truly tried in high school ... how many hours did you spend on books at home during the the week. Now compare that number to the time spent playing X-Box, PS2, PC games, the internet, going to the mall with buddies, and the 100 other distractions that were available.
I was a shitty student in high school, just like you ... I thought I sucked at math, the same as you. My first year of college my GPA was fucking 0.9. That summer, I got off my ass, and for the first time in my life I applied myself to school. That meant 2-3 hours of studying every night, every single night and not just 10 minutes the day before a test. You know what happened? I made the fucking dean's list that summer with 3.85 GPA in 13 semester hours of work. I was damn proud of myself to. My grades were never again quite that high, but now I know that I could do it and I knew what it would take to be successful in school.
 
It's times like this I'm glad i'm a genius...I never tried in school and got 3.75 all the way...senior year I graduated with a 4.1 (honors classes)...I cant relate, the only hope I can offer is that you meet an incredibly smart woman to bear your seed...so your kids might have a chance.

If you go to community college,(they pretty much let you in)...for two years and get your A.A or whatever...you can transfer to a 4 year university, no prob. Get out of that "pity me...i'm stupid...nobody likes me" mentality, turn off the computer...sell your videogames....get some books....and FUCKING DO IT...dont bitch to us...get off your ass and make it happen.
 
i know exactly what you mean. there was so much i got distracted with, so much that shot me down to such a miserable, unmotivated state. i've always tried to find ways to make myself better because i knew i could do better, but it's suprising what can hold you back. for the most part since i moved from the city school has been the stupidest crap on earth. even when or if i apply myself to it, i still know that majority of what they teach you is useless aswell as the way they teach it. everything they teach you is so incredibly basic and could take up so much less time.. but of course in a public school they are teaching to herds of students who all have different specific learning abilities.. which they can't take time for every single student, be they fucking stupid or 'smart' --which the 'smart' ones are usually just normal kids who would rather have rules and restrictions to define themselves. so they get the good grades because they want these children to join the drones of society--so they stretch it all out into a seemingly detailed lesson plan.. but it's all stupid pointless little assignments that make up an incredibly basic point.
mind you i still do enjoy knowing interesting facts.. reading books etc. they are mostly just things to consider or inspire. i'd rather have an oppinion than nothing at all. i still do a lot of what you say.. go with the flow, take what life hands to me.. but i try to use those things to an advantage. in little ways everyone has an interesting life.. whether that be a good or bad thing.. we all have our ups and downs and they're all different stories in little or big ways.

well if you were human you'd have been through that stage before, and majority of people of who do, don't necessarily want pity. it's just the way they feel and it's better to get it out somewhere than to bottle it up inside and just feel worse. or if you're feeling useless and stupid, you don't really care whether it's out or not because to you, nothing can help.. so it's just something to do.
that kind of encouragement does work well sometimes. i know i'd rather get yelled at to get me motivated to do something myself than to get helped up and my head patted and sent on my way.
find a way to fight through your life. be strong and don't fall. you may think you've already fallen, that you're not strong enough to do anything, but that's a load of bull. if you had fallen, you wouldn't bother with ANYTHING, you'd either lie there and literally waste away or just kill yourself. you're still here UF, you may not think you're doing much with your life but you're still doing something. and that's usually a sign that you're something of worth.. or at least still strong enough to become something of worth.
you're kind of right to make everything your fault. at least.. almost everything in your life. we make our own choices, we think our own thoughts.. although every single experience and decision one makes, is never a fault. it's a choice, it's what happened or is going to happen, it's a step, it's a part of you. what you make of yourself before you die can be beneficial to anyone in some way, whoever you've been in contact with, you'll have been a part of what made them, just like everything and everyone that happens/happened to you, is a part of what made you.
i wish everyone would try or want to try to make something of themselves and their lives, but that's their choice. and whatever they choose to do, will never be useless. it can never not have an impact in some way.
that's just my thoughts on it.. if it made any sense to you.
 
You need to have more fun! Get a girlfriend (a real one) and start bowling or somethin! Cry me a river, then join the rest of humanity! If your attitude about life is that is blows from mornin to evenin then guess what??? YOUR LIFE DOES SUCK! Look I know it ain't a bowl of fuckin peaches, but you gotta roll with the punches! Don't get knocked the fuck out cause a few things ain't goin you way. If you don't like your life quit whinin about it and do somethin about it!
 
it happens to most of us and at the time we probaly wont even see it, or know its happened.. im not preaching, i dont know enough about life to preach, but something or someone is out there for all of us and when your down the most, that shit is not want you want to hear, but personally i think its true... we all need to feel wanted or loved, its a forfilment us stupid human need, do want you want or need and it will come... x x x x
 
i didn't feel the way u did about school (like u give a shit) but i'm in the shit life and people telling me what a waste of time it is for me to breathe doesn't make it any easier to smile but i do when i see them wasting their worthless wisdom on poor little me. Being responsible for your fuck-ups is life, more life than some(w/silvr spoons included)
Take a pill and get over it(but feel free to bitch til you choke)
 
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